Saturday, July 31, 2004
back at home ... went to sch in the afternoon for a discussion abt the Youthtopia thingy.hmm had a long discussion and also a fun time with the grp members . Have to do a proposal. wah ... many things are to come. Praying hard that i dont freak out from all the hectic schedule. went to cycle to holland to meet up with hy and the rest of the cycling gang. Vincent, brian's friend came along with us. He is a super duper joker. Cant tahan the lame shit of his. hahahahaah
after slacking, went to west coast park to play with the playground. HAHAH super fun ... while on the way there, vincent fell off his bike twice. Both times he fell in the drain. Poor guy. i think he is too damn tired. Blur till like that... hahahahah
at west coast, realised it was a good place ... ahahah fun and the mac there is a total culture shock. the mac there is very comparable to the ones at east coast and some other places. Drive thru la.. blah blah blah .... hahahah. well, maybe i wronged her abt the past when she went there the last time. really sorry abt that.haiz....
after slacking at mac... went to a bbq pit to sit and cock. hahaha chatted happily till two bikers came. OMG... we raced them.. hahaha brian was the leader. But he did something pro seh. hahahah braked behind the Giant guy hahahah... maybe they got the impression that brian was trying to scare them ... but brian had other intentions of trying to brake in prevention of crashing ... kudos to you brian.
slacked till two plus before leaving the park. cycled to zhou blk to oil the bikes. hahaha after oiling, the bike ride was smooth... hahahah like new bike... wah... the satisfaction is 100 %. At the bus stop opposite SP, saw the two bikers again.. suggested the idea of sprinting to the junction of buona vista to prevent brian from being malu by his accidental stunt at the park. hahahaha .. perfect ride home with wendell.
while i was bathing , this thought hit my thinking mind. I feel that eyes are the perceptors of everyone. Did you know that our eyes cant see ourselves (with the exception of mirrors). What we see is others. thats why we tend to judge others than ourselves. The way we see things may not be the things which could be seen by others. WHy cant we see the own characters of us? hmmm why we are always judged by others but not ourselves? Isnt it weird why god made us this way. As what the bible says, "Do not judge , you too will be judged. For the same way you judge others, you will be judged and with the same measure you use, it will be measured to you."
well, thats a thought to ponder abt and i am convinced that it is true. well, thats all for the day. signin off.. ciaoz
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Thursday, July 29, 2004
nothing to do now.. hmmm isn't life boring ? hmmm
went to the poly forum selection ... did not know what to say at first... but soon.. i overcomed the kan chiongness ... hmm hopefully i could get thru.
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how long am i going dwell in this? i dun know... how long am i going to be like this? i dun know ... haiz...
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Wednesday, July 28, 2004
kinda realised that its time for my blog.
nothing much happened in sch. just the normal stuff . nothing interesting. HMm well .. slacked at home for the rest of the day.
had a long nap but it was marred by a nightmare . Recently i am having these nightmares. terrible. haiz..
hmmm hope you are doing fine. well thats all for my blog for the day. TC and ciaoz....
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Tuesday, July 27, 2004
hmmm ... got back from cycling.. well ... cycled like there was no tml. Hmm... hurt my knee while carrying the bike down to my house.. in fact.. my knee is shaking a little. Hope it will be fine.
let be start off the day
went to sch early for test... had not much time to take the test. Could not complete the last question. I doubt i will pass... sigh... next time ... will whack the test harder... if not .. i cant have 2 weeks of leave. usual lessons after that. kinda boring but i was able to comprehend the theory part.. It is abt routers. Love those type of networking shit. Hmm .. i did not receive the email for the poly forum ...haiz ... its a goner.. well.. guess i am not up to the task.
late morning, decided to cycle after seeing the clear blue sky... as the day progressed, it turned out that it started to rain. was so sad when it rained. But thank god it went fine.. clear sky again.
went home before leaving the house to meet brian for teh peng.. after that ... waited for "lightening speed" Zhou to arrive before heading to the carless route to esplanade. Slacked there at THE EDGE ... heard that zhou love nuts. hahaha if you get what i mean.
hahaha after that ... zhou gave the idea of going past orchard before going home... the traffic was kinda fierce. zoom zoom zoom... you could hear the turbos and the NOS of the damn bus... phew... Smelly!!!!
now... got home ... studying is somehow very important. if you see now, almost everyone is armed with a diploma... you should at least get it. Without it, it will be hard to get an average job. Study hard ok? I know you can do well, i am sure you will. You will always be in my prayers... take care...
thats all... signin off... ciaoz ... [praying for you]
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Monday, July 26, 2004
Struggle, A Fable
A man found a cocoon of the emperor moth and took it home to watch it emerge. One day, a small opeing appeared, and for several hours the moth struggled but couldn't seem to force its body past a certain point.
Deciding something was wrong, the man took a pair of scissors and snipped the remaining bit of cocoon. The moth emerged easily, its body large and swollen, the wings small and shrivelled.He expected that in a few hours the wings would spread out in nautral beauty, but they did not. Instead of developing into a creature free to fly, the moth spent its life dragging around a swollen body andshrivelled wings.
The constricting cocoon and the struggle necessary to pass thruough the tiny opening are God's way of forcing fluid from the body into wings. The 'merciful' snip was in reality cruel. Sometimes, the struggle is excatly what we need.
It is hard to accept and painful in process.. but maybe thats the only way it will work out. well, i shall keep on praying for something beautiful to happen ...
norman ran through the snow at 11:43 PM [comment]
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just suddenly felt happy.. after i prayed.. i felt so relieved .. hehe ... i hope this prayer will be answered.
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Sunday, July 25, 2004
hmm ... back from cycling... quite ok ... nothing much happened ... seriously.. really running in the back of my mind is the dream i had yesterday.. hmm well, sorry zhou.. did not tell you we were cycling. pai seh bro.
its been awhile .. i know it is still in my mind ... dun know how to put it down in words.
got this quote from brian.. it goes like this :
How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime.
hmm i wish it to be it is for a lifetime... with you
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Saturday, July 24, 2004
hmm back home from church.. had a nice time talking to wei xiong while having supper with him. hmm... found out what i really want . Did some thinking ... realised that i want to share happiness with you. sadness is part and parcel as well. I can't help it ... haiz... EmO ... hmm well, i think i should move on already. i tried so much but still to no avail. Dun really know what more to do..
had a dream while i was sleeping in the afternoon ... felt very lost trying to find someone... went round and round.. found out from the web ... the interpretation of my dream.
Lost:
To dream that you are lost, suggests that you have lost your direction in life or that you have lost sight of your goals. You may be feeling worried and insecure about the path you are taking in life. Alternatively, you may be trying to adjust and get accustomed to a new situation in which the rules and conditions are ever changing.
maybe it could be true/false. i really dun know my decision any longer .. keep praying you... signin off...
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Friday, July 23, 2004
hmmm ... i am confused liaoz.. Super emo.. dun ask why. dun ask who or what. i wanna help you ... but would u let me? i pray for you ...
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Thursday, July 22, 2004
hmm.. back from cycling again. went to holland for a slack... quite fun actually. hahah this time .. almost got hit by a dumb driver who did not see me coming down the straight road. He had the guts to stare at me when i reached the traffic junction. some drivers just dun see that they are in the wrong. hmmm reached home in ten mins. from holland to my home.. cool..
norman ran through the snow at 11:25 PM [comment]
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hmm.. back from cycling again. went to holland for a slack... quite fun actually. hahah this time .. almost got hit by a dumb driver who did not see me coming down the straight road. He had the guts to stare at me when i reached the traffic junction. some drivers just dun see that they are in the wrong. hmmm reached home in ten mins. from holland to my home.. cool..
norman ran through the snow at 11:25 PM [comment]
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in sch blogging. bored la... i am man from the north... listening to the song...
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Wednesday, July 21, 2004
hmmm back at home now... just went to sentosa for a cycle with da gang.( K.O.C zhou, The handsome Brian , and DEll engineer.).. cool place to chill... cycling is fun and a smooth ride. Hmm... since buying the new bike, it feels shiok, powerful and smoother than my old cheapo bike. HAHA.. well, JQ .. can see my post? went to a CPU assembling competition ... finished in a matter of mins with some GREAT help... cheers to the peeps who helped the grp. well, kinda EmO right now ... hmm maybe its time ... should i or not ...? I decide ... as what zhou said ( it is ur decision to take it or not) .... signing off.. ciaoz ...
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Tuesday, July 20, 2004
bored... i am confused already... EmO
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Monday, July 19, 2004
hm.. i guess prayers are really true. Well, lets see how it goes.
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finally at home ... can take a rest whole the whole week. no test but a daunting task ahead of me. Dun know if i could go to the next round of the poly forum thingy, feel that the CLub WHo.knows will take up time, with Y.A gonna expand and i am part of some training for year 1 students. Basketball training also. Hmm plus the proposal thingy , wah ... cant afford to waste time doing nothing. hmm today EmO la.. sianz.. dun wish to blog further. ciaoz
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hmm.. just wondering what does it mean? hmmm ... i just dun know abt myself anymore . do i have or not? if the thingy did not happen the other time , i would have said yes right away. but now, i dun know ...
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bored. what more can i say? hahah nothing to do in sch. JAVA programming .. worst. hmm sometimes i dun really know how much do i have for you.? hmmm i really dun know ... tell me la...
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Saturday, July 17, 2004
haha got a new toy. well happy and guess what ... its the 17th of this month.. if you get what i mean... have to clean my new toy now...hahaha
well brian's bday was yesterday...
ok lets start with what happened.
first ... got up to collect my new toy. hahaha went to HUP leong to grab the bike and change some stuff.. hahaha next when to meet up with mr lunz... chatted like no tomorrow.
next, i went home for a short breather before heading on the journey. first, cycled to labrador with the cycling gang. Had fun with them... took pics of the beautiful sunset. hehehe after that went back to hup leong to get dell's and zhou's tyres. now zhou cycles in light speed. LOL
hahah after that went to orchard for a look at the food festival stuff next to specialist centre. BUt dampened my mood after looking at the endless flowing of people. HMMM headed to food junction for dinner.
next.. cycled all the way to east coast to slack. zul joined us too... hahaha fun ...
went back on the trip at 3 ... had a pit stop and suddenly it rained. got me really stunned. hahahah my new toy was wet.. sob sob...hahahah but after reaching home, decided to clean up the toy..
hehehe well , thats all ...ciaoz
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Thursday, July 15, 2004
hmmm today was a day bad. went for a rally . quite fun actually.
but when it was my turn, it sucked terribly. Could not answer any question given to me by some people from the club.
well after that had cell. I just did not know why tears welled up in my eyes when i went there. I felt something was wrong . i did not know why . I really dun know ..
saw a bike crashed on the way . seemed really bad so i decided to help the guy and his bike up to the pavement. he could hardly stand. My prayers go out to him. Wondered if it was me or any of my loved ones, how would it be ? haiz... moral of story ... dun ride a motorbike. a bicycle will do.
sent jennifer home after cell. she talked alot ... great.. Talked every bit of her life and i finally knew why certain things happened for a reason. well, now i know there is not only person who is protective. Got to know that her bf is some sort of a person like me. Hope the bf can understand her better . Although she studies here, i am sure her bf is already missing her and wishes to protect.
now... back at home ... and i finally figured out what went wrong already between me and hf. It really broke my heart. seriously. haiz... eMo ... sundial dreams... are dreams going to be fulfilled ...? or just another empty one.... ??? hmm well, i shouldn't be angry anymore .. hehe
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hmm ... why the anger is still in me? haiz... talked to someone abt it. just dun understand how and why this will happen? Am i really bad ? am i ? i dun know ...i really dun know la... hmmm hehe finally going to get a real bike hehehe . can collect it tml lo....
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Wednesday, July 14, 2004
never do such things
for it will come back to u
never say bad things
for you dont know who am i
never judge people
for judgment will be on you
i hope you are happy
for i know how bad you are.
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Tuesday, July 13, 2004
hmm... understood that why i was being such a person last time... haiz.. well, i just dun know how to put in words but. just that ... i really regretted many things abt relationships. That everytime i cycle and EmO at some place, i think many things abt the past and sometimes it really affects me.
well, actually i feel that if given a chance to make it work... i will chance upon it. and no matter how hard it takes, i will not give up.
to the "special person" : i hope you are happy abt it ... for i know how you are ...
Like an ex-ah beng said... What goes around... Comes around... hehehe
norman ran through the snow at 11:23 PM [comment]
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hmm i understood another thing already. haiz... so sad so sad... EmO boy ...
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Sunday, July 11, 2004
is it ok to miss you when you are not around? is it ok to continue to love you even though you are not here? is it ok for me to care for you? till now i still know i love you. if i could still have feelings for you? why cant you do the same? you are a good girl which i don't wish to let go... let time be the factor.? i dun know what i can do anymore... helpless but yet wishing to do something. I am just afraid of hurt again. the question has been in the back of my mind for the past 3 months 23 days . Every time it has always been the same answer ... i am afraid ... very afraid of getting shot down ...
if you really have feelings, could you tell me ? i just cant handle the truth. The truth hurts. What can i do ? i dont know ... i made mistakes ... i can repent . but will it be enough to convince you?
trying so hard to hold myself, yet i fell back into the hole of mine. Through days passing and time ticking, i find myself hiding in the hole of my broken heart. Just dun wish to come out.
i always question myself . after rejection upon rejection, i still hold it so tightly .. why? the last one was the worst . I tried but what more can i do to make you love me again? i just my faith upon god. I just cant take it anymore ... eMo .. haiz... sob* sob* ... ;(
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Saturday, July 10, 2004
hmm i wonder something... when we were together , i did not know you were unhappy or something. I thought you changed suddenly. BUt now i know , u changed slowly . I did not notice and did not feel it, cause i did not want to change anything at that time. I am kinda angry with myself for not doing anything when you started to change. haiz HMM the feelings are did deep inside which i still cant explain why it is stil there?
i realised that it will be a dream for me and you to be together. But i wish to walk the dream. Just one day .. just one day it will... ;(
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Tuesday, July 06, 2004
So long ago
I didn't have a care about me
I didn't know my right from wrong
But now I know
That you've got your love around me
You know it makes me feel so strong
Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel
Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right
Through out all my life
I never thought I'd have somebody
Someone to call my own
And now I've found
A little bit of heaven baby
A place to call my own
Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel
Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right
Hey there dont you know
You gotta slow down before you know
You gonna brake down and turn around
Before you know, you go and break my heart
When will you learn to be
A little helpful when you think of me
A little careful when you're close to me
Coz baby i loved you from the start
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Monday, July 05, 2004
i dun know why.. but i just know that deep down in the fort of my heart that i still have feelings. if i could do something to make you love me again, i will. i love you very much.
we cant be together cause u think its impossible and you said that you don't have feelings. I will keep praying for you , in any aspect of life. I pray you will get someone better than me. if not, my door is always open.
norman ran through the snow at 9:57 PM [comment]
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i guess...something will happen today...
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