Wednesday, June 30, 2004

hmm you may think i am sensitive or something. But if you try to be nice saying you are on the phone and you have work to do? then you should just tell me u dun want me to bother me. why cant i speak u? i dun know ... my decision is to let go. no point knocking on a door when no one wants to open the door. let go, i will but there is something within me that doesn't want. but what can i do?????? ;( i guess i have done enough. I don't know what to do anymore. everything i have done, isnt enough? i don't know anymore . i really dun know anymore. everything i have done during the past 3 months isnt enough to move your heart. Haiz.

i always pray for you . Pray for your heart to change, pray that you will be safe, well-taken care of. i dont know how long my feelings will last. i dont dare to say how long it will last. i am really hurt by what you feel that you dont have feelings. i really doubt your words but its from your mouth. i have to accept that. i love you but if you really don't want, i have no choice. really not a choice.

you may never hear from me or see me. but for now . the feeling is as strong as before. it will take time , i don't know how, dont know when, don't know anymore.

norman ran through the snow at 12:20 PM [comment]

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