Tuesday, April 20, 2004

17/4/04
hello... did not go to church today.. felt very guilty... i just cant understand abt many things .. i guess that every lesson can only be learnt with experience. i am thinking of her again .... the heaviest for the whole week.. haiz... was thinking of all the mistakes i had made during the time with her... seriously.. i admit i am really a bad bf...if i had my temper down , if i had treated her better .. if i had quit smoking .. if if if if... argh...... i really regret .. deep regrets...if only became a better man ..signing off... :'(
15/4/04
hmmm second post... hehe.. hmm i guess its time to let go lah.. if i truly love her.i should let her be happy.. hmm hating to go back to square 1 again... had a long chat with HY in the wee hours of the morning .. It really opened my eyes abt my relationship. Actually i felt that she was the one for me when we first went together... and had this dream (but i will not tell ) ... but now .. things change , people change and my mindset changes as well... hehe ... now i really understand that" loving someone does not mean she has to be with you" .. hehe sometimes .. i cant really hate someone ... i just cant do it... its not just me to really hate someone in order to forget stuff.. well thats all for now... will be blogging soon again... signing off...
13/4/04
This is my new blog ... Trying to create one on my own... hopefully its good... hehe ... nothing else to place in here right now... just dun understand myself anymore ... sometimes really dun know why i would put so much effort into her.. loving her so much... argh!!!! i am really going nuts... i cant cheat myself by saying i dun love you ... which i really cant... going bonkers very soon... on the edge of it... haiz....:( i am really sick of myself....)



norman ran through the snow at 5:24 PM [comment]

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